I feel like all I ever do is fall in love with people I can never be with.
haha I finished it and it only took me…a dAY AND A HALF????
ugh there are so many things wrong with this and it’s not smooth at all but it’s
The beta kids with the animals I associate them with.
I want to be where the white wind is cold
Where the dark rocks are jagged, majestic, old.
Where the sea-birds cry out into the sky
As it shifts like tears in a goddess’ eye
Where the bell-buoys sing soft of the ocean’s woe
Of the lives of the sailors who come and who go
And whose haunting song echoes, and earth-tales impart
And roll soft, loving waves over my cold, lonely heart.
School ended for me today.
My father took me to the bookstore afterwards, and I relaxed for a few hours in complete peace and contentment with a caramel frappuccino and a couple books on programming.
I’m finding that there is really not much to say about my day other than that. It was uneventful before the bookstore expedition, and is uneventful now.
Tomorrow I am perming my hair and visiting a very dear friend of mine. I am not one to make bold changes in my appearance, so this is a sort of wonderful experience for me that I am sure will help me become more comfortable with taking risks, and I’m feeling pretty secure in my decision.
This is a summer that will be very different from any summer I have had before, and very different from any summer that I will ever have ever again. This is the last summer of my life that I will not be working, until I retire. This is also the first summer that I have decided to actively devote myself to reforming and improving certain aspects of myself, as one might do with a New Year’s resolution, rather than waste my days away and be generally unproductive at all times (I do understand that rest and relaxation are necessary elements of a happy, healthy, balanced lifestyle, but I find that I am prone to inertia and become extraordinarily lifeless during the summer months when I find myself spending the entire day on the computer doing nothing).
My goals for this summer are:
- To discover how to freely create. Whether it regards my music, writing, or visual art, I’m fed up and frustrated with the fact that creation is so dreadfully uncomfortable for me, when it was never this way before. I’m deeply creative, but somehow always feel that my creation is forced, and I’m looking forward to having the time to dig deeply into this subject in order to change myself.
- To diligently study Latin grammar. If I am to join a class that is a year ahead of me in order to be on the AP track, I will have to learn a whole year’s worth of grammar independently during the summer. Because language is nearly my favorite thing in the world, and Latin my affinity, the challenge will not be to uphold my interest, but to remain consistent and diligent in my studies.
- To gain a more in-depth understanding of computer programming and programming language, as well as to come to terms with my rocky relationship with mathematics. I am an intelligent person who can do anything I set my mind to, and math is no exception. It is my hope that learning computer programming will make me not only more willing and relaxed about tackling mathematic problems, but also a hell of a lot more badass.
- To sew myself two pairs of pajamas: one Prospit-themed, and one Derse-themed. This is not my first priority, but is something that could be a lot of fun, have happy and snuggly results, and make me feel wonderful about myself. :)
Happy summer, everyone. ♥
Typewriter Series #82 by Tyler Knott Gregson
Happy Father’s Day Daddy-O. I always have words, but I do not have the right ones to express to you how much you inspire me.
I saw a game called Limbo, and the boy looked a lot like Jake
so I drew this
This guy playing the game made me crack up though
that game looks really cool and that art is awesome
I am ever burdened by
The undying struggle
Between the ardent, desperate desire
To chain pain’s hand to my own
And let it possess my pen
And my mind’s frail, fearful plea
That I rip myself from its clammy grasp
And remain here safe, and resolve
That it is better to suffer numbly
Than to submit myself
To my deepest self.
ok im posting this because i always get really sad when i start coloring because i usually like how just the b/w lines turn out before i do all my coloring and texturing crap
so yeah!!!!!! here’s some stuff.