I feel like I have so much to say, and so little will to just say it.

I feel like there is so much inside me that I need to get out, and at the same time, there’s nothing… just void.

I feel like there is so much that I want and need to do, that I’m overwhelmed by it all and am left here in a sort of numb state.

I’ve been in this numb state for so long that I don’t know if there is really anything inside me at all; maybe I’m mistaken. It was there once, but it’s been so long since I’ve felt it that I cant decide if it’s just buried, or if it up and left me.

While I sit here contemplating this, more time passes and I’ve still done nothing but think about it. My mind tells me to take action, but my heart tells me that I don’t really want to. It’s too much work, and I’m too tired. I’m always so tired.

My heart is numb too, it seems.

All I ever do is think about it. Would it be right for me to get up and take action if it is not what feels right, or is the discomfort just a result of the unfamiliarity? 

My soul feels like it is stuffed with cotton.